I am Israel

I have so many blessings from God every day. I am on the border of the promised land.  I have not ever wondered what I was going to eat the next day or where I was going to sleep at night.  I have witnessed God's protection more times than I can count.  SO WHY do I murmur and complain? I ask God for something and in his mercy and love He grants it.  I praise Him for all of about a week. Then I am back to murmuring and complaining for something else. (I don't even like leeks and onions)  Oh retched (woman) that I am.  God has promised never to leave me or forsake me.  God has my best interests at heart.  He knows the plans He has for me, the thoughts that He thinks about me, plans for a hope and a future.  His thoughts are not my thoughts. Higher than the highest human thought is God's ideal for me.  Yes I know all of this. So why are there still doubts and troubling thoughts in my mind? An enemy has done this. Lord, help me focus more on you and less on me.  I am sinking beneath the waves, just after having walked on water; so now I am Peter as well.  Lord I believe help Thou mine unbelief! My wish would be to not be the person that Peter was before the cross, but the one that He was after his conversion! Bold, proclaiming Jesus to anyone who will listen. God I need more of You and Your Holy Spirit.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MX1G71WK-FA  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tElvdnId4Q  So God gave me these two songs this morning.  The first "Move-Keep walking" by Toby Mac. The second "All My Hope" by Tauren Wells.  So tired of this life and its fight.  John 16:33 (KJV) "These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world." 1 John 4:4 (KJV) "Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world." Revelation 2:25 (KJV) "But that which ye have already hold fast till I come." Revelation 3:11 (KJV) "Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown." https://www.bible.com/bible/1/heb.12.1 Hebrews 12:1 "Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, 2 Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds. 4 Ye have not yet resisted unto blood, striving against sin. 5 And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him: 6 For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. 7 If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?" Lord, Help me hold on to You and keep my focus on You always.

Providence- revised

Ezekiel 33:2b When I bring the sword upon a land, if the people of the land take a man of their coasts, and set him for their watchman: When…: Heb. A land when I bring a sword upon her  3 If when he seeth the sword come upon the land, he blow the trumpet, and warn the people;  4 Then whosoever heareth the sound of the trumpet, and taketh not warning; if the sword come, and take him away, his blood shall be upon his own head. whosoever…: 5 He heard the sound of the trumpet, and took not warning; his blood shall be upon him. But he that taketh warning shall deliver his soul. 6 But if the watchman see the sword come, and blow not the trumpet, and the people be not warned; if the sword come, and take any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at the watchman's hand. 7 So thou, O son of man, I have set thee a watchman unto the house of Israel; therefore thou shalt hear the word at my mouth, and warn them from me. 8 When I say unto the wicked, O wicked man, thou shalt surely die; if thou dost not speak to warn the wicked from his way, that wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thine hand. 9 Nevertheless, if thou warn the wicked of his way to turn from it; if he do not turn from his way, he shall die in his iniquity; but thou hast delivered thy soul.

Jeremiah 23:1 Woe be unto the pastors that destroy and scatter the sheep of my pasture! saith the Lord. 2 Therefore thus saith the Lord God of Israel against the pastors that feed my people; Ye have scattered my flock, and driven them away, and have not visited them: behold, I will visit upon you the evil of your doings, saith the Lord.

Jeremiah 25: 34 Howl, ye shepherds, and cry; and wallow yourselves in the ashes, ye principal of the flock: for the days of your slaughter and of your dispersions are accomplished; and ye shall fall like a pleasant vessel .the days…:  35 And the shepherds shall have no way to flee, nor the principal of the flock to escape.

P 655 Men whom the world has worshiped for their talents and eloquence now see these things in their true light. They realize what they have forfeited by transgression, and they fall at the feet of those whose fidelity they have despised and derided, and confess that God has loved them. The people see that they have been deluded. They accuse one another of having led them to destruction; but all unite in heaping their bitterest condemnation upon the ministers. Unfaithful pastors have prophesied smooth things; they have led their hearers to make void the law of God and to P 656 persecute those who would keep it holy. Now, in their despair, these teachers confess before the world their work of deception. The multitudes are filled with fury. "We are lost!" they cry, "and you are the cause of our ruin;" and they turn upon the false shepherds. The very ones that once admired them most will pronounce the most dreadful curses upon them. The very hands that once crowned them with laurels will be raised for their destruction. The swords which were to slay God's people are now employed to destroy their enemies. Everywhere there is strife and bloodshed. The Great Controversy http://www.egwhite.org/

G.C. P 384 What was the origin of the great apostasy? How did the church first depart from the simplicity of the gospel? By conforming to the practices of paganism, to facilitate the acceptance of Christianity by the heathen.  P385 To secure converts, the exalted standard of the Christian faith was lowered, and as the result "a pagan flood, flowing into the church, carried with it its customs, practices, and idols." --Gavazzi, Lectures, page 278. As the Christian religion secured the favor and support of secular rulers, it was nominally accepted by multitudes; but while in appearance Christians, many "remained in substance pagans, especially worshiping in secret their idols."--Ibid., page 278. Has not the same process been repeated in nearly every church calling itself Protestant? As the founders, those who possessed the true spirit of reform, pass away, their descendants come forward and "new-model the cause.

Ezekiel 9: 4 And the Lord said unto him, Go through the midst of the city, through the midst of Jerusalem, and set a mark upon the foreheads of the men that sigh and that cry for all the abominations that be done in the midst thereof. set a mark: Heb. mark a mark 5 And to the others he said in mine hearing, Go ye after him through the city, and smite: let not your eye spare, neither have ye pity: mine hearing: Heb. mine ears 6 Slay utterly old and young, both maids, and little children, and women: but come not near any man upon whom is the mark; and begin at my sanctuary. Then they began at the ancient men which were before the house.

G.C. P656 The mark of deliverance has been set upon those "that sigh and that cry for all the abominations that be done." Now the angel of death goes forth, represented in Ezekiel's vision by the men with the slaughtering weapons, to whom the command is given: "Slay utterly old and young, both maids, and little children, and women: but come not near any man upon whom is the mark; and begin at My sanctuary." Says the prophet: "They began at the ancient men which were before the house." Ezekiel 9:1-6. The work of destruction begins among those who have professed to be the spiritual guardians of the people. The false watchmen are the first to fall. There are none to pity or to spare.

God is coming soon. Are we ready?

So, I've been having some trouble sleeping recently.  I started fasting and praying about what was troubling me.  Last night aka early this morning 3/15/18 I had a dream,  In my dream there was this large gathering of "Christian" youths.  There were also some adults there who seemed to be in supervisory roles.  The young people were complaining that their movies were being censured for sexual content.  I asked one of the adults, with the youth present why they were watching such movies anyway.  I don't remember the reply, but from what I can remember it seems that there were 3 sex scenes that were deleted and the kids were complaining about not being able to see these.  At this point I looked behind me and up at the dark sky and saw a tornado forming.  I grabbed their hands and said, "there is a tornado coming, run!" To which the gentleman said, "I have been a meteorologist all my life and I don't see any tornado coming."  When he had turned around to look at the sky in the same spot that I had seen the tornado forming all he saw was a clearing sky.  I said, "I know what I saw and it IS coming!" "We must warn those in the building to take cover." We all ran into the building.  I was trying to get peoples attention to warn them to take cover while he was telling people not to worry.  I managed to lead a small group of people either by taking them by the hand or actually carrying one on my shoulder.  We got into this beautiful house, but the kitchen floor had just been mopped so I was told to put the person that I had been carrying down in the living room.  Then I woke up.