Blessings

Move, or move me…;https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FC2xZysraK4  Thy will; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dp4WC_YZAuw  Blessings https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQan9L3yXjc

My story. The year was 1994.  I was madly in love.  The problem was it wasn’t to the man that I was married to.  I cried at night begging God to let me be with this other man.  Guess what He said? NO!  I had an affair with him and divorced my husband anyway: still begging God to let me be with this other man for “real”.  God still said NO.  For almost three years I begged and pleaded and cried to God for this.  Once God even said to me, “How long are you going to keep asking me for what I have already said no to?”  I replied, “forever.”  Then one night as I was laying in this man’s bed a song came on the radio.  I’m telling you folks, God can work through anything!  We listened to country music at that time and the song was “Unanswered prayers.”  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9GuA5PZx3K4 “Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers.  Remember when you’re talking to the Man upstairs, that just because He doesn’t answer doesn’t mean He don’t care.  Some of God’s greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.”  I cried myself to sleep that night, the last time I was with that man that I dearly loved.  I told God that I would NEVER thank Him for not answering that prayer.  We broke up shortly thereafter.  Time has gone by and sometimes I still wonder where my life would have taken me if I could have followed that road, but I do know this:  I thank God every day for not answering that prayer, and for His continued leading and guiding in my life.  My life has not been easy and I have not often followed God like I should.  But I know that He has forgiven me my past and that He will continue to lead me.  He has given me such peace as I have turned my life back over to Him.

 It was more than 10 years ago now, as of the writing of this story, my life was one of the most hypocritical that one could possibly imagine.  Going to church every week, but living a life that was anything but Christian.  I was miserable.  I came to a point where I had to make a choice.  Keep living like I was living and quit going to church or give up my lifestyle and renew my dedication to God.  I was in church one weekend and I had a 3x5 card that I had brought with me.  I wrote on it these words… “I give to God my past. I give to God my future.  I give to God my family. I give to God my Love.  I took off my wedding ring and my Mother’s ring.  I promptly lost the wedding ring in the church, but I taped the Mother’s ring onto the 3x5 card.  I told God that I lost the wedding ring in His house and that wherever it was it belonged to Him.  I placed the 3x5 card in an offering envelope and put it in the plate as it went by. A couple of Sabbaths later the church clerk read that 3x5 card in front of the whole church.  She said that she thought that it was "neat" and that she didn't know that people did that sort of thing. My life was immediately ripped apart. Though everything that happened I had the most incredible peace about everything.  I cannot explain other than the fact that God IS on His throne any other reason for that peace.  A few years went by and I met and married another man, no better than the other one.  Just four short days after we were wed he and my oldest son came to blows.  He spent 2 weeks in jail and my kid left and got an order of protection.  I begged him not to as this would mean that my son could not come to the house if my husband was there, but he did it anyway. While it felt like a knife stabbing me in the chest, I also could not have been more proud that he was standing up for himself and what he believed that he should do.  Let me take a minute to really emphasize how important the power of prayer is here.  I asked anyone who would listen to pray for my family.  My church has a prayer line, WBGL has a prayer center and my own personal prayer time as well.  I also did not just sit and wait for him to come back to me.  I mailed him little cards and care packages occasionally.   One text that I clung to is …Matthew 19: 24 and again I say unto you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God. 25 When his disciples heard it, they were exceedingly amazed, saying, who then can be saved? 26 But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, with men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible. My dad showed me this little thing which serves as a reminder of the truth of God’s word.  He took a 3x5 card and cut a hole in it that he could fit through. http://www.instructables.com/id/How-Cut-a-Hole-in-a-3x5-Card-That-is-Large-Enough-/   A couple of years went by. I ended up having to get an order of protection myself and then unfortunately got divorced again.  The bitter cold of this winter set in and my water pipes froze.  I have been out of work since the end of October. I've been out of work for 2 months. It's been hard but God is good. my initial pay cut was about 400 every two weeks. This week it was cut by another 200. I couldn't make the mortgage payment. I was paying other bills and God said, don't forget tithe. What's another $50 when you can't pay the bills anyway? so I wrote the check. I called my boss and after several phone calls and them saying that it wasn't possible they ended up cutting me another check for the extra $200 yesterday. Then my bank tells me I have short term disability insurance on my loan and don't have to pay it. Then I get a notice in the mail that my hospital bill was cut by 75% and instead of owing thousands I only owe a few hundred! God is still on His throne! One might tend to be discouraged about all of this.  This is a good time to remind people not to shut themselves away from others.  Go to church and surround yourself with Godly people.  After two days of no water, it suddenly came back.  I am sitting in my recliner that evening when the doorbell rings and standing there is my oldest son!  Now things aren’t all better completely, but it is a good start and I know that. Romans 8: 28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. And Matthew 6: 33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. And  Ecclesiastes 3: 11 He hath made everything beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end. Are all true. So whether you have prayed for 1 day , 1 week or 1 decade, never stop praying and believing. God sees your tears and He knows your pain.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5WKzIqjqhbk